Come Unto Christ

It's been a really long week full of a lot of frustration and tears. Everything kind of crumbled at once and I was so deeply upset that I was about ready to throw up my hands, say "I'm done", and walk away from everything I've worked so hard for. I felt so completely alone and just plain numb. I went to a discussion on Thursday (January 30th) and the Elders told me they weren't going to meet with me or Zane anymore. With everything else going on, that pushed me over the edge. I went home that night and went to bed. It was only 8:00. From there things just spiraled out of control and I found myself in an incredibly dark place.

I got a text last Tuesday from the missionaries asking to set up an appointment for Friday at the Thunell home, they said that President Durrant had changed his mind about them not meeting with me. Reluctantly, I agreed to meet with them.

We started by reading a chapter from the Bible. It was like Isaiah to me, I didn't really understand it too much. Elder Payne explained that we were always going to have trials in our lives and that coming to church during those trials is super important. Then Elder Christensen went on to explain the new rules. That's when I got really quiet. Soon enough I was crying and telling everyone in the room about everything that's been going on in my life. Elder Christensen and Savannah both bore their testimonies. I really look up to both of them and their testimonies mean a lot to me. But Savannah's hit me hard. Her testimony was echoing in my head all of yesterday. I really liked how we all got around the table on our knees and prayed. I haven't had that kind of experience yet. It was cool to feel like a part of a family prayer.

Today Heavenly Father was talking to me a whole lot. Every talk in Sacrament and scriptures that were found in my Sunday School class's game and in Young Women's. Everything. I loved it. I think I felt the Spirit the most after church, though.

Savannah, Bethany, Mallory and I are practicing a song to sing in Sacrament soon. Bethany and Savannah are singing, Mallory is playing the piano and I am signing it in ASL. It's beautiful.

The lyrics go like this:

He's the One who healed the leper, and who brought the dead to life.
He's the One who fed the hungry, and who gave the blind their sight.
He's the One who walked on water, then He brought them safe to shore,
and whenever you may need Him, He's the One you're looking for.
So let Him in, and He will take away your pain.
When you feel His love you'll never be the same.

Come unto Christ. Come unto Him, 
and by His grace be made holy again.
He's calling your name. He's waiting for you with arms open wide.
Come unto Christ.

He's the One who taught forgiveness, and who showed a better way. 
He's the one who helped the hopeless and those who'd gone astray.
He's the Savior and Redeemer, the Bread of Life the Prince of Peace.
If you're hungry, lost of captive He's the One who'll set you free.
So let Him in and you'll remember who you are.
He will mold your life and change your willing heart.

Come unto Christ. Come unto Him, 
and by His grace be made holy again.
He's calling your name. He's waiting for you with arms open wide.
Come unto Christ.

And you will find eternal life.

Come unto Christ. Come unto Him, 
and by His grace be made holy again.
He's calling your name. He's waiting for you with arms open wide.
Come unto Christ.

What a beautiful song... I love it. I had tears in my eyes pretty much the whole time. I'm really lucky to have these girls in my life. What wonderful examples. Their testimonies shine through their singing. I love these girls with all my heart and I am SO thankful for them. I'm so glad I get to perform this song with them.